We did it! I know you want to know how Monday’s visit to the doctor’s office went and that is the summary: we did it!
Claire went into the morning very brave, telling us she planned to not even cry today. And she stuck to it for a long time, but when the set-up started taking longer than expected I saw the look on her face the moment her courage began to fail.
Before the actual shots, the doctor puts numbing cream around the injection sites in her calf and hamstring. While that medicine gets to work, Claire positions herself on the exam table with her arms draped over a pillow. We watch a YouTube instructional video for the line dance in the Hannah Montana Movie and wait. We make a false-alarm trip to the potty and then wait some more.
The doctor brings in the small electronic machine made to guide his placement of the injections, the biggest part of the waiting is over. She is doing so well, we all take our time. Too much time, apparently, because slightly before the alcohol wipes are smeared across her tiny legs, the tears began to flow.
“I don’t want to do it. I don’t want to!” Now my courage fails, but I smile anyway.
Put a rush on that, Dr. – we’re about to lose contact with all sense of perspective!
Now she actually has something to yell about as the doctor inserts the needle, injects Botox (lovingly termed nerve poison), repositions the needle under the skin, and injects more Botox.
“Owie! That hurts! Ohhhh! That hurts! . . . . ”
We take a short break while a second vial is loaded. Breaks aren’t good. She starts to cry, announcing again that she has changed her mind and does not want to go through with it after all.
“We know, Baby, it will be over soon.”
And it is, but not soon enough. Claire is wiping tears while we pull back on her jeans and notice the tiny broken blood vessels around her eyes and cheeks. “It’s all over, Baby.”
She sits up tall on the exam table, looking a little ashamed but still confident, “Yeah, I only screamed a little bit.”
We smile, knowing what a trouper she is.
“And I didn’t even spit at him.”